Letter #33 February 21

Family!

I am so sorry for my minor fast freak out last e-mail. just so you know life is great. I am with Sister whitney still in Center. Sister whitney is cute. She has spent the last two transfers in L'viv she is from Utah as well. She is a Ukrainian speaker and even though she is younger than me in the mission she knows more words than I do. Oops, I better start studying more!

We are excited to serve together. It's surprisingly nice to be back with another American. I love my min's they are great but they is something easier now. Maybe I am just getting used to being senoir companion. I struggle still. I truly want to be a great missionary but some how I am just not there. I know the things I need to be better at and I am working at them. People say they become better people when they serve missions but lets be honest, I am just realizing how many more flaws I truly have! I don't think I will ever get married because I am just to dang hard to live with. The poor man that gets stuck with me for iternity. Bless his heart.

Well Youlya prayed about a date to get baptised on the 12th of March and decided it wasn't right for her. I am so bummed! We will still be working with her but it's so sad because I don't know if her and andre are truely interested in the gospel or just all the activites that revolve around the church. It's hard to tell. Natasha/natalia is awesome she has so many questions and is so busy that we don't meet all the time and when we do she just asks so many questions we struggle with having a focused lesson with a topic.

I feel like last transfer was a doozy. I had 3 copanions in 6 weeks and then I also had to learn how to be a senior companion. Which shouldn't beso hard but it really was for me. So I am so excited for a new start and ready to really blow it our of the water. I just still don't know how. We have lots of great goals and want to be incredible missionaries and baptise thousands..... heck I will even take one baptism..... but just not getting there. I feel like I am working hard but not effectively or efficiently. Which is a really bad problem to have! I want to be a great missionary and no what to do to become that it's just doing all the little things and remembering everything we are supposed to do in order to get there. Ha who knew missions were hard? Weird! Still incredibly worth it and so fun so the hard part doesn't really matter but still. ha ha

Also family. I struggle when I hear missionaries mention sisters who they think are great missionaries and there is a part of me that wants to be that great missionary but I don't wnat to be THAT missionary. I don't know if that makes sense but there are things I see personality wise that I never wanted to be when I thought of a sister missionary. But yet that is who they say is a "great missionary" Is it bad that in my head I refuse to change who I am to be like that? Yet I still want to be great. So where is the line do I change and be THAT missionary because that is what a good missionary is even though thats not me?

Well that maade no sense! But we have to go! I love you all so much! Sorry for the end ramble! LOVE YOU!

Sister Schmidt

Letter #32 February 14

Hello best family in the world! How is everyone! I love you all so much. This week was a good one. but this is going to be short because I am out of time and i think i have arthritis or something. My wrist is killing me just like my finger joints do when it is cold outside.. so i dunno i type slow. but anyways This week was good I went on exchanges with sister Robinson she was in center with me we got a really good compliment from our mcl who was on a lesson with us and said we were super powerful missionaries and good together. it was at that moment i realized that we are probably going to be companions again. well this week was good today was so cold my eyes were watering so fast that my tears froze to my face and so did my buggers in my nose ha ha ha sorry too much info but its cold now!!! That's why my title is eat my words a few weeks ago i said it wasn't cold here! oops i lied! Well our investigators haven't excepted dates but they will soon please keep praying! Love you!!!!!!!!!!! Sorry this is so lame!

Sister Schmidt

Letter #31 January 31st

So first off life is good still a little hard but you know, it's a mission If it's not hard it's not worth it. This week we had combined district meeting with President. He informed us after having a bad month in January he expects great things for February. He wants every companionship to have a baptism in February. This requires a lot of miracles. We don't have any dates set at all. But I am pumped. I really feel like we can do it but We need lots of prayers because we are not seeing where that baptism is going to come from right now. We have a few people we think might be ready. Here are there names please pray for them and dad feel free to take them to the temple. So first Andre and Youlya they are the young couple we are teaching that accept everything. Andre is praying about baptism it really shocked him hen we brought it up but I think they are ready. So they are going to be back in town this week so we hope to meet with them and set a date. Then there is Natasha. This is the referral from head quarters of the church and also from a member. I wrote about her in my letter to president so that's who she is. She is so cool she is studying to be a gyno and is finishing school this year and then will start her residency. She is awesome. I can't wait to meet with her. I really think she is ready! Then we have Natalia she is the older lady that is a psychologist. She came to church yesterday and I didn't talk to her really and she didn't love it and left before we could talk to her. I called her and she said it really meant a lot that I called her and made sure she was okay. She is interesting I don't know what to do with her. There is the family that came to church last week. I want it for them but I don't think they want it they have met with missionaries for years! And there is a lot of others but those are the ones to cofuse on. and just pray for miracles because I don't know what to do.

I am struggling with being Senior Companion. I think my companion hates me. I get stressed and mean and she says she feels alone and like I am not even her companion. Isn't that terrible! I hate being a mean person. but you all know how I get. I get a little tude and then have a hard time changing. I am so stubborn. It's bad news. I really want to be the best comp I can be but I am a lame . i am trying to change and be a better person. I still suck. I am working on it but hey I got to go. But I really am trying to be a better person. I love you all and I love being a missionary I just need to learn to be a better one! Love you!

Sister Schmidt