Family!
I am so sorry for my minor fast freak out last e-mail. just so you know life is great. I am with Sister whitney still in Center. Sister whitney is cute. She has spent the last two transfers in L'viv she is from Utah as well. She is a Ukrainian speaker and even though she is younger than me in the mission she knows more words than I do. Oops, I better start studying more!
We are excited to serve together. It's surprisingly nice to be back with another American. I love my min's they are great but they is something easier now. Maybe I am just getting used to being senoir companion. I struggle still. I truly want to be a great missionary but some how I am just not there. I know the things I need to be better at and I am working at them. People say they become better people when they serve missions but lets be honest, I am just realizing how many more flaws I truly have! I don't think I will ever get married because I am just to dang hard to live with. The poor man that gets stuck with me for iternity. Bless his heart.
Well Youlya prayed about a date to get baptised on the 12th of March and decided it wasn't right for her. I am so bummed! We will still be working with her but it's so sad because I don't know if her and andre are truely interested in the gospel or just all the activites that revolve around the church. It's hard to tell. Natasha/natalia is awesome she has so many questions and is so busy that we don't meet all the time and when we do she just asks so many questions we struggle with having a focused lesson with a topic.
I feel like last transfer was a doozy. I had 3 copanions in 6 weeks and then I also had to learn how to be a senior companion. Which shouldn't beso hard but it really was for me. So I am so excited for a new start and ready to really blow it our of the water. I just still don't know how. We have lots of great goals and want to be incredible missionaries and baptise thousands..... heck I will even take one baptism..... but just not getting there. I feel like I am working hard but not effectively or efficiently. Which is a really bad problem to have! I want to be a great missionary and no what to do to become that it's just doing all the little things and remembering everything we are supposed to do in order to get there. Ha who knew missions were hard? Weird! Still incredibly worth it and so fun so the hard part doesn't really matter but still. ha ha
Also family. I struggle when I hear missionaries mention sisters who they think are great missionaries and there is a part of me that wants to be that great missionary but I don't wnat to be THAT missionary. I don't know if that makes sense but there are things I see personality wise that I never wanted to be when I thought of a sister missionary. But yet that is who they say is a "great missionary" Is it bad that in my head I refuse to change who I am to be like that? Yet I still want to be great. So where is the line do I change and be THAT missionary because that is what a good missionary is even though thats not me?
Well that maade no sense! But we have to go! I love you all so much! Sorry for the end ramble! LOVE YOU!
Sister Schmidt
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